I give up. I’m going to Weight Watchers. In person, live and dreadful. I’m going to listen to the leader cheer me on, absorb all the advice to eat sugar-free Jello and fat-free salad dressing.
And maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to shed my 50 pounds of spare lard over the course of the coming […]

Is imagination a factor in motivation? Of course, you’ve got to be pretty committed to imagining fantastic things and wanting what you imagine. If you can’t really imagine it, can you create the motivation to achieve it?
As I’ve mentioned, I’m pretty unmotivated right now about weight loss. I understand intellectually that I need to lose […]

I’ve come to believe that I am an unmotivated person. I must be, because I’m pretty sure that I’m completely unmotivated to lose weight. Intellectually, I understand the need to part with the tonnage accumulated by years of over-indulgence and sloth. But emotionally, I must be attached to my lard. Heavy dinners, copious amounts of […]

Today is not a good day. I’ve been off the blogging for a week, and in those seven days I’ve put on five pounds. It could be the indulgence of my birthday, the visit of my nephew, or the all-around collapse of discipline, but nonetheless I’ve put on almost everything I took off.
So now it’s […]

Yesterday I was feeling pretty proud of myself for losing a couple of pounds. Today, they’re back after rather serious birthday indulgences.
And … I don’t care. If my weight’s ever going to change, I’ve got to get over the day-to-day fretting over a pound or two and make overarching changes that just make the general […]

The reason I’m fat, honestly, is because I eat too much and don’t get enough exercise. And I’ve been doing that now for all of my adult life. Sometimes I’m a little better than others, but within the last decade I’ve put on and lost and put on and lost about 70-80 pounds.

Eating for all these years has provided temporal joy. When I’ve enjoyed something really tasty, the clouds go away (if only for a moment) and there’s something else to focus on. But now that I want to lose weight, I see that to shed the tonnage, I’ve got to look inside and find something else that can really nourish who I am. Writing this blog has helped me focus on something other than food, or diet. By committing to writing it every day, it’s made me see that with a little more thought about the “why” of losing weight, the “how” might take care of itself.

In the ’70s we ate 136 pounds of flour and cereal products and now it’s up to 200 pounds per person – and the increase is almost all from processed, white flour, high sugar foods. Not to mention, everything has been Super-sized. Example: 1955 McDonald’s French fries – 2.4 ounces, 210 calories. 2004 Super size Fries – 7 ounces, 610 calories.

OK, it’s only Monday and I feel like the week is already half over. I’m grumpy. I’m hungry. And the prospect of losing 26.2 pounds by October 21 seems impossible to me today. I honestly don’t know if I have the stamina to do all that’s necessary to lose the tonnage.
If there is one […]

One of the realizations I’m coming to is that thinner people just don’t drink as much as I do (or did). I think that maybe they have a glass or two of wine a week (not a night). Much as I hate to admit the reality of the situation, I think I have to adapt to their way if I want to lose weight. Because my way doesn’t seem to have the same effect. My way has gotten me into the situation I’m in today, where I weigh too much.